Dear Ilena,
What a beautiful Angel Felipe is, i know your pain i lost my daughter
Lisa Feb 20 99 she was 17 yrs old,such a big part of us went with our children, i'll never be the same person again i Thank God for my other daughter and my grandson otherwise i don't think i would be here but what keeps me going is that one day i'll be with Lisa again
i'm so sorry for your loss, i live in Australia but i was borne in Spain.

(((((((God Bless You))))))
Milli

What a beautiful tribute to your very handsome son. My heart is with you & I send many wishes for strength and courage. Take good care.
Hugs, Lynn

Dear Ileana,

What a beautiful son Felipe is. And so smart and kind. The website is a lovely tribute. I am so very sorry for your loss. (((Hugs)))

I am so sorry you have lost your. so precious son, Felipe and for all you are suffering. It is a long and sad journey and you must not feel ashamed as you are grieving so deeply.
"It is always those who love the most who most miss the one they love" author unknown
love and hugs as I think of you after reading your TCF online sharing
God bless you and keep his loving arms around you.
Phyl
Loving mother of angel Allan
Loving sister of angel Charles

adieu i don land here ooooooooooooooooooooooo

What a beautiful remembrance and tribute to your son Felipe. I hear how very much he is loved, all the good that he accomplished reaching out to others, the numerous and amazing achievements in his short life--a very special and memorable young man with a wonderful smile. I have read your online writtings on TCF newsletter numerous times and have felt your pain.

I wanted to wish your son Felipe a Happy Birthday in Heaven--he is remembered with Joy by those who know him and those who have met him through your writting.

What a good looking son, your Felipe. You are not stupid, you are a mother with a broken heart, and when we live with our hearts in pieces, we can not always be expected to be what other people consider normal. God bless you.
Hugs, Ryan Gallant's mother, Joanne

Thank you for the honor of sharing your son. My son, Jason, died May,2003. It truly is a sorrowful journey we remain on.~Mary Ann

Thank you for the honor of sharing your son. My son, Jason, died May,2003. It truly is a sorrowful journey we remain on.~Mary Ann

Thank you for the honor of sharing your son. My son, Jason, died May,2003. It truly is a sorrowful journey we remain on.~Mary Ann

What a wonderful, handsome, young man your son was. You have every right to be so proud.
Paula
Mom of Chris

Thank-you for sharing your tribute to your son-it was beautiful.Cathy Canada,mother of John Canada,3-14-74 to 1-10-2004.

4/13/04
Today marks five years that Felipe has been gone. In years past,
I used to dread this day... a day that would take my mind through
so many memories of Peeps and bring about such heartache.
But today seems to be different.

They say that time heals all wounds, and perhaps it's true. For
the past few months, I've thought about Felipe a lot - thought
about playing football and hockey with him, thought about going
on drives with him, and even thought of odd memories of him -
ya know, memories like when we learned state capitals together,
or the time that Felipe insisted that we didn't suck at hockey, but
rather we were just learning!

So today I'm stopping by the tree at Mt. Clemens Ice Arena to put
an addition on to Felipe's bench. I will be adding a drink holder -
a drink holder that is made of half of a hockey puck. (Grebby
actually broke the puck in one of his games!) Seems like a fitting
accessory to the bench :)

So as you read this entry - share in my joy in thinking about
Felipe. I'm proud to have known him, continually enjoy memories
of him and will forever consider him a best friend!

4/13/04
Today marks five years that Felipe has been gone. In years past,
I used to dread this day... a day that would take my mind through
so many memories of Peeps and bring about such heartache.
But today seems to be different.

They say that time heals all wounds, and perhaps it's true. For
the past few months, I've thought about Felipe a lot - thought
about playing football and hockey with him, thought about going
on drives with him, and even thought of odd memories of him -
ya know, memories like when we learned state capitals together,
or the time that Felipe insisted that we didn't suck at hockey, but
rather we were just learning!

So today I'm stopping by the tree at Mt. Clemens Ice Arena to put
an addition on to Felipe's bench. I will be adding a drink holder -
a drink holder that is made of half of a hockey puck. (Grebby
actually broke the puck in one of his games!) Seems like a fitting
accessory to the bench :)

So as you read this entry - share in my joy in thinking about
Felipe. I'm proud to have known him, continually enjoy memories
of him and will forever consider him a best friend!

It is a very beautiful tribute you made for your son Filipe, such a
handsome, smart young men, I hope you will find some peace
soon and good memories of your dear son .
Hugs.
Alla. The Compassionate Friend.
Max,s Mom (2/10/84)-(4/18/02)

Just visiting Felipe's site again to let you know I'm thinking about
you all with Felipe's angel date coming up next week. You have a great
looking family and I know how much you miss Felipe. May April 13th be
filled with warm memories for you all ... as every day is, I'm sure.

In Loving Memory of Kay Cee Herring:
http://www.geocities.com/~atlantatcf/KayCee_Herring/KayCee.html

...................

Your website is a special tribute to your son. My daughter was killed in an automobile accident October 7, 2003. She turned 17 in Heaven on October 19th. She was buried on her middle sister's birthday! It has only been 6 months but seems forever. She was a beautiful young lady - straight A student, Jr. Class President, Spanish Club Vice-President, 2nd base for Lady Raiders fast pitch softball team, loved to swim, ski, play tennis. She was so active and our house was always full of laughing teens; now my house is so quiet that at times I can't bear to stay here. We live in a small town and very few parents have experienced the death of a child; I pray they never have to travel this journey. But they think after 6 months I should be doing fine - which is what I tell them but inside I am dying. I will pray for you to have the stength to continue your journey. Surely someday we will hold our dear children again.

I am so sorry for your lost. I was surfing in the net, looking for a lost brother that I have never met (Felipe Pagan) is the name. I came across yor memorial. It was beautiful,I know your son is looking out for you and your family. With regards Juana Pagan

What a lovely tribute to your son. May his memory be eternal.

That was so touching, it made the both of us cry, we just had a lil boy id do the same thing for him if he was ever hurt or died. I can tell that u were a great mom and loved ur son dearly. Most kids dont have that he was lucky.
Cheryl and Dustin

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your Felipe. The pictures you have
posted here are just so great and your site shows so much love. What a
great looking young man. I also know all too well what a broken heart
really feels like and how much you miss your son more and more with
each passing day. We lost our only daughter the night of 12/1/99. Kay
was 23 years old when she was killed by a drunk driver. I'd like to
think that Felipe and Kay Cee have now made a special connection, just
as we parents have through these sites. Hugs to you all.


In Loving Memory of Kay Cee Herring:
http://www.geocities.com/~atlantatcf/KayCee_Herring/KayCee.html

..............................................

The trouble is- before you can get to be a 'former great' you have to be a 'great'. -Charlie Brown

I am so sorry for your pain. Your tribute to your precious son is just heart breaking but beautiful. I too lost a son so I know your pain all to wee.
My Blessings to you
Bunny

I am so sorry about the loss of your beloved son. Your website is a beautiful tribute to him and his memory. On April 18th 2002, My son Camden died at birth. I have never felt such sadness in my life, I can only imagine yours. It is so very hard to say good-bye especially when they are much to young. Your son will forever be apart of you. Thank you for sharing your story, what a nice way to keep his memory going. God bless you and your family...

I am so very sorry for the loss of your handsome son. This website is
a beautiful tribute and your love shines throughout. We lost our only
daughter the night of 12/1/99. Kay was killed by a drunk driver on
I-95 between Jacksonville & St. Auustine, FL. We miss her so and just
like you, our hearts are broken. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

In Loving Memory of Kay Cee Herring
http://www.geocities.com/~atlantatcf/KayCee_Herring/KayCee.html
.............

I think about Felipe litterally everyday he was one of my closest friends. I know that he is still with all of us, in our hearts. I love you, Felipe.

God Bless you...I wrote you an email..I hope you get it..He is so handsome..I know your heart and soul are aching..HOLD ON...One day we will be with them again..They are not dead..They are away...Your entire family is precious and I know you miss him so much...I know I miss my 2 sons..But I know they see things now from a whole different realm..A spiritual realm that even I cant see or imagine the beauty of..Please know I am praying for you and your family and thanks for sharing with us all...

Peg

Dear Illena,

In memory of your son, Felipe, on his birthday, we are thinking of you and wishing you and your family all God's blessings.

Kathy and Joe Smith

I miss you so. Tomorrow is your birthday, my love is with you. Mami te quiere mucho y nunca te olvida.

Ileana, esta pagina es un bello homenaje a Felipe, y a tu inmenso amor por el. Que Dios los bendiga a todos en tu familia...

Thank you for sharing your son in the beautiful website. What a handsome pair of boys you have. I lost my wonderful son in 1999 also and I can certainly understand what a Mom feels when her world jerks then stops.

Mrs. Pagan
I was very sorry to hear of your loss. My husband and I were blessed to have known your son and all that you say about him is true. He had the warmest smile and the biggest heart. I am sure he is smiling bright looking down at you. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
God Bless, Carol L. Cummins

I am so sorry for your loss. Felipe was such a loving and kind person. Your family is in my prayers. God Bless You!!!

Muy bonito, me conmovio grandemente Te felicito por haber tenido la valentia de hacerlo.

When I read about your son and so many other Mothers who write about their special children, how loving, kind and giving. I think they were angels among us already. Many of us knew our children were precious and I'm sure thanked God often. We just wonder why this horific ending to such young wonderful children. You do have his strengh even if at times the pain is unbearable. Take care of yourself it is the best we can do.

I'm so sorry for your loss, it I know is hard to bare. I loss my son on August 9, 2000, he was stillborn at 24 weeks gestation. Losing a child is very hard to deal with and some of my days are bad ones and some are good. I try to get through it, it was only 9 months ago and it feels like yesterday. God Bless you and your family. I will keep you in my prayers.

I am terribly sorry for the loss of your son. Remember that he is always with you in the heart everyday. He will always be your angel.

Kenneth

You have a lovely memorial in memory of your son. I am glad I met you through chat..though it breaks my heart what brought us together. :(
Heaven is full of angels divine, this I know...cause it has yours and mine. May You always feel God's arms around you ... holding you and lending you strength. *Mark's Mom*

What a beautiful memorial page to a wonderful son. Your love shows thru and I can see that. I, too, lost my son, Michael, on Aug. 29, 1999, in a motorcycle accident at the age of 27. My heart goes out to you because I know the feelings you are feeling. Michael was my only child. We go forward one foot in front of the other till we see our children again. God Bless you and comfort you. Love and prayers to you. Ann - Michael's mom forever....

So deeply sorry for your tremendous loss of your son. Your beautiful tribute in Felipe's memory touched my heart so. God Bless you and yours. My prayers and thoughts are with you. You are never alone.

What a loving memorial to your son. I am so sorry for your loss. This road we walk is long and hard but we have each other to lean on. We could not walk it alone. My son was also killed on his motorcycle in
May of 1995 he also was 25. Oh how he loved to "ride the wind" as I'm sure Felipe did. Maybe now they ride together. Tender Hugs to you and your family.

This is a beautiful memorial to your son. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my daughter to cancer on January 1, 1998. I still miss her so much. Our children live on in our hearts. May God bless you always. Helen Christian

This ia a beautiful and touching memorial to your precious son. What a wonderful blessing we have of the memorial websites that help to keep the memory of our children alive for all to remember......
Peggy Martin (Shelley's Mom forever)

Lleana,
What a beautiful site you have for your beloved son Felipe. The love you have for your son, came out in your most beautiful words.

A very special and beautiful site for your son Felipe.........A tear came to my eyes when I read about how he bought his friend a glove......it reminded me of my son Jason's best friend.........yes I too have lost a son and he was 24 and on April 11, it will be 2 years.......well......Jason's friend told me a story of how Jason wanted him to go to The Eagles concert and he coundn't afford the ticket ........well Jason bought him the ticket.........I never knew this, but was not surprised......that was Jason... I pray that God gives you and all of us moms the strength we need to get through one more day.......till we see our sons again.........peace & love, Joy....Jason's mom

What a beautiful tribute to your son Felipe.

You wrote a beautiful and poignant letter to TFC and a fine tribute to your son. We can survive anything with the help of family & friends.

Our healing does not come from others who wish us to "get over it". Our healing comes from within and I hope you find this inter peace of mind and soul. Getting some of our life back comes from sharing our memories of our loved ones and giving a gentle hug to others who face what we have faced. May your God surround you with the peace and comfort need to continue to live.

We share a common bond. My son Bob, an only child, was also killed in Orlando by a hit and run driver (never found) as he walked along a road to his car. Bob was also a lover of motorcycles and was wearing leather when he was struck and killed.

Maybe because they are understaffed, maybe because we are not a rich and famous sports star or some political figure, but for whatever reason, The Florida Highway patrol did as little as they could to investigate his death. I hope you find the peace of soul you are seeking.

If you have time please visit my Bob’s site http://www.geocities.com/~atlantatcf/Bob_Liljedahl/Bob.html

Ron (Father of Bob (SBD))

Your son was a beautiful person inside and out. The song by Savage Garden is a favorite of mine, too.

I sit here tonight reading the words that you wrote about your loss & I can only imagine that your strength has been sent to you from above. You have created such a beautiful memorial tribute to your son. I am sure that he is proud of his Mom. I wrote a poem that I hope will send you some comfort. It's called, My Mom is a Survivor.
And I wrote one called ... My Dad is a Survivor! I think that your son knows & sends you the love to be jsut that. A survivor. Living one day at a time. May the Lord be with you. Hugs, Kaye

The site you created in memory of your son is beautiful. What a beautiful family you have. I know your pain - I lost my 36 year old daughter in June '98, six months later I was diagnosed with breast cancer and 3 months after that, I lost my mother, whom I cared for. We can survive anything with the help of our Lord, family & friends. When I went to the surgeon about my cancer, he couldn't understand at first why I didn't seem to be upset (I wasn't), since most women "freak" out. I told him the story of my daughter's death and that there was nothing more painful than losing a child. I'm not telling you this for sympathy, I'm fine, only to let you know you are not alone in your grief. As you said, when you lost your husband, you didn't think anything else that terrible would ever happen. Well, that's what we all think, but we take each day at a time, smile and try to help others. Know that my prayers are with you and your family. God Bless and Keep You. Sincerely, Mifi

You have made a beautiful website in tribute to your son. I have also lost a son..and have a poem there in www.poetry.com under my real name Barbara Bernstein. Please come to our website
called www.rainbowcorner.com Our son was a bit older, a policeman, but he looked very much like your Felipe. Our Richard was a soccer player and had 2 small girls but in another state. Blessings to you. Wish we lived closer. Barbara

Dear Zully,
Honey I just visited your memorial to your son,what a beautiful tribute,he is so very handsome,and you and your family's love is reflected in him.
Love LouAnn/Lala

What a wonderful page.

Beautiful

What Beautiful Memories. Felipe would be very proud of the way you are sharing your memories.

Love you
Judy

Ileana:
Your addition to Felipe's website is beautiful! I'm sure that he is watching over you and is very proud of you!

Raquel (*_*)
Brian's MOM

Felipe is such a handsome son. I know you miss him terribly. Thanks for sharing him with us. I like the horses on his web page.

What a beautiful young man. What a wonderful family he comes from. May God Bless his family and may they know that Felipe is with our heavenly father and continues to watch over all those lives he touched.

My thoughts and prayers are with you. This is a lovely site.
Raquel LaForce <rdcl50@hotmail.com>
Marietta, Georgia - Wednesday, October 25, 2000 at 05:44:56 (CDT)

I'm also a Puerto Rican Mom that has a lot in common with you. My "hero" son Brian was killed by a drunk driver in Tahiti. Brian died on April 12, 1999, just a day before your beloved Felipe. You and I were grieving at the same time, thousands of miles away. Brian's 25th birthday would have been 2 weeks ago on October 11th. I also have a 27 year old daughter, Rachelle, and a grandson 19 months old.
I understand your pain.....it will be within us as long as we live!!!
Brian was a professional trombone player and had graduated from USC as a jazz and music major; like your Felipe, he was the sunshine of wherever he was. Always polite, full of kindness and full of love.
I hope that Felipe and Brian have met in Heaven; I'm sure that they would be great friends ! Que DIOS los cuide!!!!

Ileana, What a beautiful tribute to Felipe. I am sure others will be comforted by this message.

What a handsome boy, what a blessing he is to your family. Oh, the sorrow that follows when we say goodbye to our sons...thank you for sharing your love and joy of a special young man!

My friend, Healing does not come from others who wish us to "get over it" or just by remembering what we stil have. Getting some of our life back comes from sharing our memories of our loved ones and giving a gentle hug to others who face what we have faced. May God suround you with angels to guide your journey as Jesus wipes away the tears. God bless, Paul.

I am so saddened to read of the loss of your handsome young man, Felipe. I too know what it is like to lose your son. Your poetry speaks so much to me, it is just such a wonderful tribute. Love and angel hugs,
Maria
Christopher's mommy forever

Dear Ileana & Family-Wanda and I feel your pain at the loss of Felipe, and want you to know that you are in our thoughts and prayers daily. Wanda introduced me to Felipe at Fernando's house; and, though I never had the pleasure of getting to know him personally, I heard nothing but wonderful things about him and how he touched so many. Though I did not know him as well as Wanda did, Felipe has impacted our lives tremendously. We think of him regularly. I hope it comforts you to know that he IS with you in Spirit; he IS within you in loving memory; he IS sitting on your shoulder guiding and protecting you each day as you journey through life. I cannot begin to tell you how many times when we are rushing about going to and from work that as I have gotten into the car after closing the door to the house, Felipe has touched me...and I see his face (and I didn't even know him well!), and I get out of the car and go back to tell Wanda I love her. Then his presence recedes. :) Just this very day, the thought of him came to me, and I did the very thing I just told you...and then Wanda came home tonite and told me about your loving, moving, tribute to your son. Hardly a coincidence! We cannot begin to fathom the loss that you have endured. And, while you have lost Felipe in the human form, remember that his Soul, his Spirit, and his Love are all about you, ALWAYS. You are right when you said that he would want you to carry on so that he would be proud of the very way that you are touching people by sharing him with us. As you can see from our experience today, you BOTH are helping countless souls here on earth. God bless you and yours. Love, Glenn and Wanda.

My sweet heart, I miss you more each day. I told you every day after daddy died that you had to take care of yourself or I wouldn't survive without you. Well I am trying but is so hard, baby. I need your smile and your hugs. You thought I was just talking when I said that but it was so true. I just want you to know that I am so proud of you and all the things you did for all of us. You were the light that kept us together and know we are lost without you. Te quiero mucho, Mami

Your website is a beautiful tribute to your son. What a handsome man he is. I lost my daughter last year also and I know the pain you are feeling. We have to help each other down this horrible road until we can see them again. You and your family will be in my prayers.

This is to Felipes Mom. I have a son who has also died. His name is Jasper. He was only fifteen. I just want you to know that you were there with Felipe when he died. You were in his heart and will always be. Just like he's in your heart.

Ileana, tu ya sabes que Felipe esta contigo todo el tiempo, y esta en mejor compania que nosotros ahora! Si pensamos asi, aunque dificil, se hace mas llevadera la ausencia..
Carinos, Lourdes

This is a lovely tribute to your handsome son. I am so sorry for your loss. I too have lost my child. My beautiful daughter, Shelley. She was my daughter, my friend, my life. I am waiting for that day when we will be with our children again. Oh what a GLORIOUS day that will be. Please visit her memorial. You will be in my prayers. Peggy Martin (Shelley's Mom Forever)

Ileana, you are in my prayers. I lost my 17 year-old son, Marshal on June 13, 2000 in a motorcycle accident. Your words echo my feelings so well. I hope Felipe and Marshal find each other. my heart is breaking and I don't know how to make the pain go away.
Love, Wendy

My best to you and your lovely family. I to know the pain and loss of your wonderful son. Love and Huggs

To Felips's Family:
I am so so sorry for your loss. Seeing this beautiful tribute made my heart hurt for you. Felipe sounds like a wonderful, loving person. And Handsome! I lost my brother Phil June 18, 1998 & feel it was just yesterday. I have no words of wisdom, hurt cannot be expressed in my words. Just know I will pray for you all & Felipe & my heart really does go out to you.

Hi,
I was just checking to see how you are doing? I'm reading the things you have posted from TCF........you're coming a long way from what you were when I first met you in the chatroom. God Bless......and know that you're thought of.

My name is Susan, I lost my brother just 4 weeks ago also to a motorcycle accident. Victor was only 29 years old and was my only brother. He lost control of his bike on a sharp turn and ran into a car then was hit by two cars after that. I know you understand how painful this is and I can only pray for the day that I can finally stop hurting so much. No one really understands the pain you feel just waking up knowing he's gone, he was my best friend and I don't know what to do with out him. I'm so sorry for your loss and I can say I understand.

Susan

I have just read Felipe's web page. It is beautiful and very sad. I got your e-mail and was touched and surprised to receive it. My son David was also killed on a motorcycle, which he was thinking of purchasing so his girlfried could drive his car. He happened 2 blocks from our home, in March of 1989, 11 yrs. ago. The loss in our lives is overwhelming, as you know. Even after all these years. I know you experiencing overwheming grief in these first yrs/months of his death. David was our youngest child, we have one other son,and he has a son, our grandson, the light of our lives. I sincerely hope you will find the comfort and help you need, and again your web page is beaufiful.

I think this is a beautiful website. Your poems express what is in the heart of many of us who, like you, have lost the light of our life. I only had one son and lost him last July 24th suddenly to a heart attack. My heart aches for you. Felipe is sooo handsome and I love the photos you put on his website. Love, Jean

Te conozco casi desde que naciste. Sabía que eras un gran muchacho y sder humano. No se podía esperar menos al tener unos padres como los tuyos. Te recuerdo con mucho cariño, aunque dejé de verte cuando aún eras un niño. Estoy segura que el Señor te ha situado en un lugar muy especial.

Thanks for sharing the lovely pictures and memorial of your son Felipe. I feel your pain and I know you love your son so very much.
Just know that God loves you and God loves Felipe.

Wonderful pictures,thoughts, and poems. I am sure he is missed.

I was and still am his little step sister. When he came home the first time i was in MI and called" Is my new little sister here yet?". I was really excuted to meet him and i am sad that he is gone..

Please don't give up on yourself, you are not alone, I've lost 2 of my children as young adults to a terrible disease. I too am not able to pray to my "loving God". I am still angry after 3 years. I know I will never be the same again. But it has gotten easier....I felt like I had no reason to live any longer too. I moved away from where my children grew up. That has helped a lot. Being around new people, and places. But I want you to know, that even after 15 years, I still cry for my first lost. I also feel somewhat like you, since I have one surviving daughter. I feel so much more for the two that I lost than for the one that I have. I spent so much time with the ones who were sick and so little time with the healthy one. She is grown w/children of her own anyway, and doesn't need me. But I know that in time, this will pass, and I know also, that my daughters who died, would want me to be closer to my living daughter, and for both of us to enjoy what life we have left to live. They told me so.....easier said than done though. Don't give up!

your website is beautiful... i am so sorry for the loss of your son.

What a handsome young man Felipe is, and what a beautiful tribute to him. As for keeping Felipe's things, you do what you need to do. I am also a bereaved mom. Keith died May 19,98 and I still have everything the way it was in his room. I smell his clothes (even sleep in some of them)play his music, just everything. Others don't understand our pain or our emotions. May you have support and love as you travel down this hard road. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Blessings to you, Janie

What a handsome young man, gone too soon. You were truly blessed to have had him for the period of his life here on earth. From our children we learn the true meaning of unconditional love - I learned from my Evan, as you have from Felipe and his brother. The unconditional love you shared never dies, but continues for us to hold on to. Felipe rests in peace, you must do what you need to in order to live in peace. Felipe would want that for you. I wish you peace in your journey.

I read your plea for understanding with our TCF Atlanta Compassionate friends. I don't think you are crazy for wanting what was left behind from your sons passing. I still to this day, want everything of Hailey's with me. It hurts so much, but yet it's some comfort to know that you have 'what' they had before they passed on. I still to this day pull out her little tweety bird shoes that she was wearing that day, and it makes me cry but I feel so much better knowing I have things that belonged to my baby, and will remain with me till I go to heaven with her. You and your family are in my prayers. I know it is so hard, but keep your faith, and he will cradle you in utter peace very soon.

I met Felipe on the first day of eighth grade. we didnt get along at first but it didnt take long for us to become great friends. I think about Flip everyday. I wish he could have seen my son,Tyler. I cant wait to tell my son all about his uncle Felipe.

I am so sorry for the loss of your son. You tribute to him is beautiful, as he himself was. If ever you feel you would like to talk to someone about your feelings, please feel free to contact me.
Peace be with you

Thank you for sharing your "angel". Felipe is a very handsome young man. I understand your pain for I am also a bereved parent.
My son, Jason passed away in June of 1997.

There is nothing wrong with you! Everyone grieves different, my grieve is very different from even my husband's. Take it from a friend who lost her 8 yr old son, she told me, What ever it takes for you to get through it - it OK! One day at a time. My friend who lost her son told me: Look at all the people to celebrate peoples deaths; example Elvis Presley. Is your son more important to you that him, of course! So keep his things ! Celebrate his birthday! He your son! Look at the people who paid big money to visit museum of stars who has pasted away, who just visit a stranger to see their personal things. My son "Jerry" is much more important to me than any movie stars on earth. I bought a showcase to put in Jerry's room to put his items in that "he loved". His knifes, the money he had on him when he was killed in the accident. His favorite "Oakley sun glasses he loved. All his favorite things. No one would paid a cent to see his show case, but you could not buy it from me for a "Million Dollors". I that a candle burning in Jerry's room (Jerry was killed 6 months ago), it is automated it comes on a night (ever night). People probably think it crazy, and they think I should forget and go on with my life. I will go on with life, my son Jerry would say, Mom, I am Ok, you must live until God calls you home, so I will. But forget my son "never". Talk about him, he your son! Share the wonderful times you shared together. So if I do things that seem foolish to others, It's OK, they are not in your & my shoes. You will be just fine. Your son's web site is beautiful!!! Your son is beautiful. Enjoying looking at his favorite things. You are not crazy you are just grieving just like me. I hope this helped.

I AM VERY SORRY FOR THE LOSS OF YOUR HANDSOME SON. YOUR MEMORIAL SITE FOR HIM, IS JUST BEAUTIFUL. I ENJOYED LOOKING AT ALL THE LOVELY PICTURES, YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL FAMILY.I AM SURE THAT YOUR SON, IS SMILING DOWN AT YOU, FROM HEAVEN,RIGHT NOW. I, TOO KNOW, YOUR PAIN, I LOSS MY ONLY DAUGHTER HEATHER,22, TO DOMESTIC VIOLENCES 04/19/99 AND GOVT PUERTO RICO, STOLE MY GRANDBABY, SO I HAVE A DOUBLE HEARTACHE. IF YOU EVER WANT TO TALK,, EMAIL ME, AT MY SITE, OR CADDY. MAY GOD, BLESS, AND WATCH OVER YOU, AND YOUR FAMILY. LINDA, HEATHER'S MOM

Felipe's home page is beautiful.. so is Felipe.. how strange to meet.. for you see my son Cress was killed by a motorcycle also and the same brand.. I started to cry when I say that... It brought back that day.. te day that my life ended.. I find that I have no life now.. I wish but also know I must wait.. I went back to Cress's site and layed flowers.. held pray's .. I don't and can't see the pictures... I had to take Cress off life surport and knowing that the blood leaving my son's life .. If I could have stopped that dear God I would give any thing.. the pain Cress was in... how does a mom who kisses the boo boo's make this pain feel better.. Cress was taken from me July 21, 1998.. at 22 years old.. all the jewelry has found it's way back to me.. the bike that was distroyed even came back last year.. I have no understanding to that.. even the people on the block went into shock seeing it.. I still wonder why.. If you wish to write please do so... and please visit Cress home page.. I'm not able to put many things from me yet.. not ready... but do have a few... frinds have given some and I have found poems that I see my self in ... or say just what I feel...
And again I know you understand..
Violet - Cress's ma... smile....with a tear...

As a grieving Mother, I can certainly see and feel the Love that you have for Felipe your most loving, caring beautiful son. My heart goes out to you and your family. Felipe most certainly is proud of his Mother.The pain is unbearable now, but when our job is finished here on Earth, we will rejoice in Heaven with our Sons!! God Bless You!!!!

Beautiful memories - hang in there, you will survive

I share your loss of your son. My son also died in a motorcycle accident and I have a few pieces of his cycle, the police report, and other items that I keep for those times when I need to physically touch something. For the first three years I went to the accident site many times, now less so. In your time you will decide what is right for you. I think of you in this anniversary of your loss and wish you healing and growth continuing.
In memory of my son Bryan 4/18/75-7/25/95

You did a beautiful job on Felipe's memorial. My heart goes out to you and your family. I too lost my son Casey 8 yrs. of age in 1997 to a tragic accident. The pain we share will never go away but will ease somewhat with time. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Until were with our angels again awaiting that sweet day.

Dear Ileana Villahermosa & family,
We are so very sorry to learn about the death of your beloved son, Felipe. But we are glad you have been able to reach out to other bereaved parents through The Compassionate Friends.
We too belong to this caring organization and through sharing with many parents, whose children have died in tragic accidents; they too have shared about their need to return to the scene of the accident, to search for any possession that may have been missed, initially. To find the quarter after a year is a wonderful gift for you. Please know, all your feelings and actions are "normal". It truly matters not, what others think and say; what is important is that if it feels right to you, then by all means, continue doing what you have been doing. As Darcie Sims says, "May love be what you remember the most."
May these days be gentle for you.

Dear Felipe, Your Mom is very fortuneate to have your posesions to keep untill she is ready to let go. I lost my son also, you didn't know him befor but I'm sure you two angels along with many angels are haveing a great time working together for the good. I know it's hard to see when Mom's cry, so you hold her through it as she has to endure it as part of the healing process. you know as well as all the Mom's know, That you will never be forgotten, your memory will live on forever. as the stars shine in the great sky above, the bigest and brightest ones are our angels twinkling eye's shineing down on us all.

In loving memory of Felipe, my heart goes out to his most beautiful family. I, too, lost my precious son at age 26, so gifted and handsome. I can only share with you that he had a 1967 Mustang convertible, which I kept for 13 years after his accident in 1986, and the time finally came from within my whole being, where I LET GO. You cannot put a time on things and you will know when the time is for giving up something that your son loved so much while on this earth. In so far as the photos of the accident, etc., you have every right to your emotions to share in what your son did in the split second of his leaving you physically. When people say, Let Go, you have by the will of God. Your feelings of being part of Felipe's last millisecond on earth are yours to experience as close to the time as you can. If that means crying and letting out your emotions, that's part of healing. He will always be with you spiritually and it helps me to share in the music and joy my son Dennis loved. He played classical trumpet, loved sport cars, was a year away from becoming a doctor and so much to live for. As with Felipe, I pray Dennis is with our Holy Family. They will always be in our hearts. May you and your family experience the peace and love of his memory. Lovingly yours in prayer, Dolores

My dear Ileana...I e-mailed you this morning, but I just finished reading and viewing your HANDSOME Felipe's website. I am sooo glad that I am here and able to share your precious son with you. My heart is with you. I understand...God bless you! With love from one bereaved mother to yet another...

Very Nice Page. I also wanted to invite you to a National conference which is here in Tampa. Its for all bereaved parents, siblings and grandparents. I would be more than happy to send you one of our brochures. We want to draw as many people as possible.

Felipe- You are missed by so many. But I know you are smiling down on us. I miss your friendship and I wish you could have met our babies-Aaron and Sydney. I know you watch over us from above.
Marci

Pipe,
Thank you for teaching me about love, passion and joy. You touched my life in so many ways. I think about you every day, and thank God that you were in my life. I love you!

Karen

Pipe,
Thank you for teaching me about love, passion and joy. You touched my life in so many ways. I think about you every day, and thank God that you were in my life. I love you!

Karen

Thank you for visiting my nephew's (Mikey Paone) memorial... You have a beautiful son and a wonderful memorial for him... Our hearts and prayers go out to you and your family... Alway remember that he is waiting for you and you will get to hold him again someday...
Compassionately, Angela (Mikey's Aunt)

I am so sorry for your loss. I wish that things can be different.

I miss that little guy every day, I shared a bond with him about our dads that no one could understsnd.He was one of my best friends and I'll never forget the fun times we had. I just wonder if he would of like this ricky martin stuff or not. I love you Felipe and i will never forget you.

Pipe,
I really don't know what to say...your death came as a big shock to me. And for some reason I still can't realize that your actually gone. Sometimes I feel that your still around watching me, making sure I do right, and never wrong. Everybody does something to remind me of some of the stuff that you did..and that makes it seem like you right around the corner. Giovanni says "Hi" he seems to know that someone is missing around here, cause he doesn't hear anyone telling him that he's such a baby...Que bebe!!! Well I know your well taken care of...I've heard heaven's a wonderful place. I'm not saying good-bye to you...cause I know that I will see you again.
So see you later, I love you very much, and miss you so much. (Hey between you and me...say hi to grandma and grandpa for me, and to my tio)
Maria
I love you.

What a handsome young man...and, it seems from your memorial, one with a heart too big for words. I have lost a child and know some of the pain you are going through right now. I am so sorry for your loss. I will pray for you and for Felipe.

Grace and love,

M-

My thoughts and prayers are with you. God Bless you and your family.

Thank you for sharing with us. We really enjoyed the site. We also miss Felipe very much and he will always be in our hearts.

We met Felipe through one of his close friends, our nephew, Mark Smith. Although we didn't know Felipe well, we immediately were drawn to him by his outgoing and friendly personality. His smile will always be what we remember the most about this beautiful young man. Our hearts go out to you and to all of those close to Felipe. This memorial to Felipe is extremely touching and thought provoking. We can only go on with the knowlege that Felipe is looking down at each of us and smiling that wonderful smile that touched so many of us. May God bless you for raising such an exemplary young man. He is to be an example to those of us with sons to raise. We would be proud if our young son, Sean, could grow into as fine a young man as your Felipe was.

We met Felipe through one of his close friends, our nephew, Mark Smith. Although we didn't know Felipe well, we immediately were drawn to him by his outgoing and friendly personality. His smile will always be what we remember the most about this beautiful young man. Our hearts go out to you and to all of those close to Felipe. This memorial to Felipe is extremely touching and thought provoking. We can only go on with the knowlege that Felipe is looking down at each of us and smiling that wonderful smile that touched so many of us. May God bless you for raising such an exemplarary young man. He is to be an example to those of us with sons to raise. We would be proud if our young son, Sean, could grow into as fine a young man as your Felipe was.

Felipe was one of my son's best friends. Someone who I enjoyed and loved as much as my very own. Always happy, and fun to have around. Kinda like having another son at times when the kids were together. He always had such respect for his family and others. We miss him very much and think of him often. My prayers are out to him and his family still as we come into a year since he made his transition. I will remember him always and keep that place in my heart for him and everyone he loved. God Bless.

What a wonderful memorial for your son. I just sat and cried reading your tribute to your son. I don't know your pain because I have not loss a child but I did experience the pain of losing my neice who was only 20 years old in an automobile accident. It has been one year but the pain is still fresh and I just want her back in our lives. It's just so unbelievable that she's gone and never will be back.
Thank you for your memorial. I will show this to my sister who is doing remarkable well since she loss her daughter. Please visit her memorial site at http://www.on-line-memorial.com I also would be honored to include your son's memorial site in my web site.

What a wonderful memorial for your son. I just sat and cried reading your tribute to your son. I don't know your pain because I have not loss a child but I did experience the pain of losing my neice who was only 20 years old in an automobile accident. It has been one year but the pain is still fresh and I just want her back in our lives. It's just so unbelievable that she's gone and never will be back.
Thank you for your memorial. I will show this to my sister who is doing remarkable well since she loss her daughter. Please visit her memorial site at http://www.on-line-memorial.com I also would be honored to include your son's memorial site in my web site.

Like the rest of you, I think about Felipe daily. Does it make me cry... at times. But mostly it makes me smile; sometimes I just start to laugh.
I was fortunate to meet such a kind-hearted friend. The times we shared in the 13 years we spent hanging out and goofing around were enough to last a lifetime.
I miss you Peeps! My friend / my brother!

I too have lost a son. Your memorial of your son was absolutely beautiful. It was so heartfelt. I lost my 19 year old son July 23,1997 in a car accident. I know your pain....I feel your pain. I wish that I could tell you something that will take your pain away. But I know of know such words. We have suffered the greatest lost of all...that of a child. As a christian I know that I will again see my son in a far greater place. I hold that thought close to my heart. Our boys are now with God. As mothers we loved them unconditionally. Now our boys are with God who loves them more unconditionally than we did.....what an AWESOME love that must be. I also have a memorial page for my son. I would love to share it with you. http://www.geocities.com/heartland/woods/5591 His name is Clint Michael Usie. God Bless you and your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Donna Usie

I am so sorry I did not get a chance to know you that well. I just know that you were the brightest star in your mother's eyes and that without you all joy has left her. You represented so many things to her and she was looking forward to having your grandkids visit. I know that me marrying you mother was a source of great pain for you, although it was not my intention. I only wanted to make your mother happy. I regret the pain I caused you and feel somewhat responsible for what happened to you. Perhaps, if I would not have married your mother, you would have stayed in Michigan and not encounter that fatal day. You are always in our thoughts and missed you very much. I love your mother very much.

Illeana and Luis:

This is a beautiful loving memorial to your son, Felipe. Thank you for sharing this and your feelings. May God Bless His Soul. Joe

The memorial to your son is beautiful. He was such a handsome young man. I hope "doing" this memorial and sharing a portion of his memory with others helped you tremendously. It helped me more than words can ever express when I set up the page for my son, Chip Whitley. Chip died very unexpectedly and this broke my heart. He was an un-diagnosed diabetic. His family was shocked by the diagnosis; he had always been so healthy --- all his life! He lived only three weeks after being diagnosed in ER at a local hospital. Just like your precious son, my Chip was loved by everyone he met. It is wonderful to have memories of such a well-loved son, isn't it? I will be thinking of you in the weeks and months to come. Life is forever changed for all of us who have lost a child. Hugs, Marie White

Ileana,
This is BEAUTIFUL. Your son was quite a young man and your love for him shows in every line you wrote. This web site was a good idea. It's a tribute that you can share with the whole world. Thank you for sharing it with me.
Lynn (TACOM)

Ileana,

This is a beautiful memorial to you son. Felipe will be with you throught eternity. Thanks for letting me view this beautiful memorial.

John Sexton

Pipe: Since the day you were born you were special to all, you were so fragile,just a small bundle of skin and eyes. You grew up to be a caring, handsome young man. You loved your family, and you were always there for them. Sweet nephew I love you very much, sleep with the angels. Titi.

Ileana,

Your memorial was very moving. I admire that you are able to share these personal thoughts with all of us.

Felipe will always remain with you - until the end of time.

I am so blessed to know Felipe's mother, Ileana, who is a beautiful person. Unfortunately, I did not know Felipe, but I wish that I had. He seemed like a great young man! May he rest in peace.

Life is so fleeting....
Thanks Ileana for sharing your precious son with us. I know the world's a better place because of the time he was able to spend with us. Unfortunately we have a tendency to take life for granted, I'll give my kids a special hug tonight and remind them how much I love them. You and your family are in our prayers! God Bless, Jerry "O"

Thanks for sending me all the personal information about Felipe.
The photo of Felipe on the first page is just beautiful - such a
very handsome young man. I will remember him in my prayers when
I visit the Vatican in Rome next week.

We only knew him for such a short time before he died but we've grown to know him more with each passing day through people who had touched his life. He would do anything for his mother, family and friends and would brighten the lives of all those with whom he came in contact.

Death has no sorrow, that HEAVEN can not heal. Felipe will be with you always. You carry him in your heart. He's part of your soul.
Know that he's safe in the hands of God. You will see him again

I remember the day I met Felipe. He has a beautiful smile, bright eyes and was very nice, respectful and I could tell he was passionate about motorcycles! Cedric, my husband (then boyfirend) and him had that in common. I remember that evenening they both walked outside to check out Felipe's bike and talk their "motorcyle talk," as I call it. They talked for a while before we left and I remember Cedric mentioning to me what a "cool little guy" Felipe was. That's how I remember him--and his smile, too.

Death has no sorrow, that HEAVEN can not heal. He's with you always.

Felipe was such a handsome, loving young man. God has a purpose for everyone's life on this earth and it sounds like his life touched many people in a loving and positive way. May he rest in Jesus' arms in heaven above and may God bless and comfort his family.

It looks really nice, Titi.

Such powerful words of love expressed from the heart. I was truly moved. I'm sure he has a great Big smile on his face knowing how much he was loved and is missed.

Your son must have been a wonderfull person, I wish I would have gotten to meet him. Maybe someday if I'm lucky enough to go to heaven we will get a chance to talk. God bless you. Your friend. Allen

Lleana, your memory page to your son is simply beautiful! I read all your poems again. Yes, all we can do is live our lives with those of us left behind to the fullest in honor and memory of our children. I know someone sent me this quote"The best tribute you can make to a loved one is the life you live after their death!" Easier said than done...we do learn how to cope and continue living, but it never goes away. It is like a cut on a finger, the opening closes, and the scar is always their with a deep wound....the same with us, our hearts heal, but can bleed and feel the pain and reopen at any time. I had a weekend like that this weekend....missing my son, thinking that Brad, will be 28 in May 14, on Mother's day....hard time for me. This was also the week he went to State wrestling when he was a junior, and placed third. A good friend of ours, son is there, and that is hard for me. Also Brad's good buddy& friend had their second baby this weekend...a dream I will never have. I have a wonderful daughter and son in law that I am very proud of and keep in touch with us, but we miss the one who is not with us. Love, Judy

My dear Pipe,
I will always love you with all my heart. I miss you every
minute of the day. You always made me so proud of having a
son like you. I hope you, mama, papa and papi are together
in heaven and I hope some day I can be here with you.

My dear Pipe,
I will always love you with all my heart. I miss you every minute of the day. You always made me so proud of having a son like you. I hope you, mama, papa and papi are together in heaven and I hoe some day I can be here with you.

This magnificent memorial speaks to the love that Felipe's Mom & Family had for him. It is a tribute to family. We join Felipe's family & friends in wishing you spiritual peace & reconciliation. Thank you for sharing the love for your Son with us. Felix, Lisa, Alexandra & Family

Very nice.

Ileana, this is a very appropriate memorial for Felipe. I didn't know Felipe well, but it is easy to see that he had very loving parents and that he learned how to be kind and helpful from their love. You know I am always ready to help you in any way I can. You have only to let me know in some way.

Sincerely, Ralph

It saddens me so to see these beautiful faces and know they are no longer with us physically. I am not sure I will ever understand "Why" our beautiful children had to go. We miss them so. The poetry you write In Memory of Felipe is so touching. Thank you for sharing Felipe with all of us. Wishing you peace from a mother who knows the pain of losing a son. Many hugs. Jayne